Well this would be the first time I've ever done this. I was inspired by reading my friend Linda's blog and it inspired me to give it a shot. I post stories on my daughter's site and I have the social sites MySpace and Facebook... but blogging, that's a first. I don't even know if anyone wants to hear what I have to say, but I figure it's a way for me to share my thoughts and if you don't want to read you don't have to.
I've been struggling with my weight my whole life and I've been successful in the past, but it's just harder this time. I can't get over my food addiction and I don't know why. I've been working out pretty regularly for the past month, but it's just not enough... I have to get my eating under control. It's not even like I over eat, I just eat the wrong things. UGH!!! I guess I'm looking for an easy way out and I know there isn't one. I know because I've been looking for it for the past 10 years.
This past weekend my brother's and I were giving my mom a hard time about who her favorite kid was and I was right... we're all her favorites for different reasons so I asked... "Mom what is it about me that makes me your favorite?" And she told me... "it's your smile... and besides those few days every month, you're such a happy person to be around". She also said "Sami is just like you, when she smiles it's contagious". It just really made me think... You know I think I'm a pretty likable person. I'm happy 95% of the time. I'm friendly and approachable. And for the most part I like myself, I just don't like the shell that's all kept in. Weight Watchers has always worked, but I just can't spend the money anymore... daycare and diapers really add up. I just need to make the commitment to myself to do something about it. Only I can change this problem, so I'm not hurting anyone but myself when I make these poor decisions.
I made a commitment to my daughter before she was born that she would not have a fat mom... now I need to stick with it, because I never want to disappoint my daughter or not deliver on a promise. It's in writing now so you can keep me in check.
2 comments:
I am so glad that my blog has inspired you I did it for me but for women like you so that you wont have to struggle as I have for 20 plus years.. I know we can support each other and promise each other to stick with it.. not only now but 5,10 or 20 years from now.. you have become a great friend and your family has become special to me.. I also, want to challenge you to go to church.. it does help... i have been going to meadow for 1 year and it has strengthend my faith.. I will help you however you want... stay strong and remember "one day at a time'
If this is a duplicate post, sorry! Blogger ate my other one... I think.
Me and diets clash... always have. I just love food way too much. Last May 2007, I joined WW... lost 11 lbs over the course of the next months, slacked off for a while, started LA Weight Loss in Sept 07, lost another 20-25 lbs between Sept and Jan/Feb 08... and then I got comfortable and it's spiraled out of control ever since. Story of my life, I know how you feel. I loved LA Weight Loss, I just need to get back into it again... If you want the book, I can type it up and email it to you... it tells you exactly what you should eat, how much every day, etc etc... let me know!
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