Parenting

Who knew it was going to be this tough? I knew being a parent wasn't going to be the easiest thing in the world, but I do have to say up until recently it really has been. Sami is the easiest child and I love her death, but we're going through a rough time right now with her. It's really been since I got back from Chicago, so I feel like maybe it's my fault or maybe it's just teething... either way it took it's toll on me last night. Sami has been putting up a fight when we put her down to sleep lately and then she'll wake up screaming in the night. Then when I go to check on her, she's standing in her crib wide awake and if you get too close to her, she'll cling to your shirt and scream when you make her let go.

This brings us to last night. I knew my mom was right when she told me that I needed to just let her cry it out, but I never imagined it would be so hard. So Sami went down pretty easy last night, but then woke up at 11:00 screaming. So I did what mom said to, I went in her room, put her nuk in her mouth, laid her down and didn't say a word to her... problem was that I think it made it worse. I did this every 5 minutes for 15 minutes until she started to calm down more, so I just didn't go in, but then I was in tears during that time. I've never heard her so upset, even when a chair was on her toes earlier in the night she wasn't that upset. It broke my heart listening to her and made me feel like the worst mom in the world... it didn't help that Jason wasn't super supportive, he kept criticizing me for going in in the first place. But who would've thought that it actually worked. I heard her get up once again in the night, but she went right back to sleep... so night one - SUCCESS for Sami... not so much for mommy.

Now I can't wait until church next week... they're starting a 3 week series on parenting... couldn't have better timing. I just love MeadowSpring and enjoy being a part of such an amazing church that puts so much focus on the community. There's going to be some amazing things happening in Shakopee this summer and MeadowSpring will be the drive behind it and I'm proud to say that I'll be a part of it... it reminds of Oprah's Big Give for the town of Shakopee and I'm excited to see what happens. Shakopee has been my home for over 20 years of my life and I look forward to giving back to the community that's supported me through most of my life.