Pushing Through

So at 6 weeks into this journey, I have lost a total of 27lbs and have passed my 10% weight loss goal. This week was different on the scale though. With the 30lb mark lumming, I'm scared of failing. I have done Weight Watchers a few times in the past and I've always lost 30lbs and then fell back into my old routines. So I'm trying harder then ever to just push through the next 10lbs... if I can get to 40lbs, then I can get to 50 and so on. I'm doing everything according to the plan, but I'm thinking I need to start exercising which is the difficult part for me. Not that I don't enjoy it, it's finding the time. But I suppose I should use the gym membership that I pay for every month.

I think the reason it's a little more difficult right now is that I feel lost in my personal life. The one person that I feel should be supporting me through this just isn't and that's so discouraging. Every week I'm so excited about sharing my weight loss success and the one person that should celebrate with me, doesn't even ask how it's going. I'm struggling a lot with that and there's other things surrounding that too, but nothing I feel comfortable talking about here. I just have a lot of thinking to do and I just don't want to think anymore... I want my happy, carefree and most of all happy life back.